It,s been such a long time since I posted anything here that I almost forgot how to do it and have no idea what to start with. I guess I should tell you something about life lately .
I haven,t blogged since May because I had exams. Two of them went well while the other two were a disaster and I felt like a complete failure. June was a month of deep self-reflection and countless "why-am-I-such-a-loser" questions and this time I really focused on finding the answer. Because I don,t believe in fate and there must be some logic in what happens in life.
You can improve something only after discovering the problem and most of the time this includes accepting a bitter truth about life...or about yourself, which is even worse. Because being your own problem is nothing exciting.
Have you ever felt completely out of balance? The worst feeling ever. Like life is falling apart and everything goes wrong. I,m turning 19 soon and I,ve been feeling so empty lately. I don,t know who I am and where I,m going. Sometimes I just want to give up everything because I don,t know what the path I have chosen leads to. Starting everything all over is not as crazy as it seems actually. It,s refreshing. Changes are good. Right now I,m feeling really adventurous and I,m slowly but surely gaining inner strength and balance, which feels oh-so-good.
Well, that,s all for now. There will be a new post tomorrow, with pictures.
Have a nice day!